I think I ruined it. I don't think she is ever going to want to talk to me again. How could I leave angry voice mails. I don't leave people angry voice mails. The last one I told her how I wanted to show her how much it hurt by hurting myself (not threatening, just saying that was how I was feeling and asking her to call). And she hasn't called me back. I know she isn't good at calling back. But I feel like she doesn't want to talk to me. What if she never wants to see me again? What if I ruined everything? I don't know what to do.