hi trying to and english teacher

i guess it is good to be doing something about the situation...online is a start.

living with depression for years, been on meds for a while and i know i can never go off. getting lonelier and lonelier though. can't decide if my body is overcoming the meds or if all my friends have just moved away or gotten married. i don't feel close to anyone, i don't live near family, i never meet anyone.

i'm indifferent. i'm not suicidal. i couldn't and wouldn't do that to my parents and i want to take care of my pet. but i feel like i am just waiting...and maybe when i don't have those responsibilities anymore, well really, i wouldn't mind be hit by a proverbial bus...as long as it doesn't hurt and i don't see it coming. i just exist. is that just the way it is for some people, i wish i could just learn to accept...and not get upset about it.