not being a part of the working force
collecting a check
being tired after a hard day-or 72 hour shift
is worse than knowing i have COPD
it plays with the spirit
this time on my hands
finding something to do with myself
whilst i worry and panic and flash
and wonder
how long before it's asbestosis-mesothelioma
how long before they put me on o2 and steroids
how long do i have?
Plays havoc with the soul
not knowing
just wish it were
over.
no-
i already tried-
i can't get out of this life until it's time to get out.
i won't try it again-too amazing that i survived that--Divine intervention that
here for some reason-some plan's at hand--till then i have to go through the days, nights and afternoons.
Like this disease will go from lungs to heart to kidneys.
POOF!