((((Echoes)))) Im so glad you had a such a great session. It sounds like amazing progress to me that you ARE able to connect with these feelings and how youjudge yourself as "lazy" or any other word youuse for yourself. And how it all protects you. I can SO relate to that. I think the harsh things I say to myself about myself protect me in a way. Who would I be if not all these things I say to myself. How would I approach the world if I was and okay person. Would there be more pressure on me to do and be more?

I relate to the social fears and uncomfortableness you feel. I consider myself outgoing, but I have an introverted, very fearful part that avoids social situations and protects me at all cost.

You know, when I was reading this about you not being yourself and trying your best to actually be yourself, I was thinking how you seem very honest and genuine here on PC. Do you think posting in an honest way about how you really feel and who you really are here has helped. I am saying that because I think I learned SO MUCH about myself how I feel about things from reading and posting. I even process as I write.

Sorry if my typing is weird. Im on a computer I cant type on....OY!