Hello everyone, this is more of a sharing post, although some advice or comments are much appreciated.
I have officially bean clean for 6 months....aside from marijuana, I have been clean for a year and half....I am very proud of this...especially considering I was a user for 10 years...despite being free now, I still act like a drug addict. I still obsess and find it difficult to get through stressful situations without craving. The fact that I do not give in, is a strong point, but I think it is more due to the difficulty in attaining the substance I so strongly desire than my own will.
Instead of drowning myself in drugs, I lose control and get very angry, and have uncontrollable crying spells which bring down those around me. I am still losing everyone around me even though I am drug free.
Will this ever stop? I know things do not come easily...but it has been a very trying year and I do not see any results aside from being clean.
I guess I was under the impression that I could ride the natural high of being drug free...this just does not work.
I still feel like a drug addict....I am so tired of hearing "it takes time..."
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