You are not your bank account, nor your employment status. You have worth just being you. Just because your doctor says you can't work and people come off disability all the time. It is not a death sentence. Science is coming up with new meds and therapies all the time. I use to feel like you do. I did give up my car for the bus. I have a good support network so I am safe. This gave me time to learn more about me, my illness, hobbies. It has kind of been like an early retirement for me. Sometimes I do surveys online for extra money. But one needs to look toward the positive. Hang in there. And there is this place to come to. It literally has been a life saver. Hang in there and keep posting.