During the last 24 hrs. I left T two angry voice mails letting her know that I was angry at her. The first one was telling her that I didn't think she believed me when I said the emotional abuse hurt. And the second one telling her that I wanted to hurt myself to show her how much it hurt and since I knew that wasn't good, would she call me. I know she isn't good with phone contact. (last session the first thing she said to me was an apology for not reaching me during the week to respond to my phone call.) But I'm afraid that I ruined everything. That she will kick me out of T and never let me come back. That she hates me for calling her. That if I was a better client I wouldn't need to talk to her between sessions.

I was wondering if anyone else had ever left an angry voice mail for T and how your T dealt with it. I'm just scared I'm going to go in this week and get in trouble. I didn't mean to cause trouble. I was just so mad.