After several years of Ts and Psychs of both verities I still don't know what I'd be diagnosed with. Every T has thought differently, or just kept changing meds. I come to the point to where I question my very thought processes. I almost can't trust myself to self-analyse myself. I don't even know if I am telling the truth any more. I feel so disconnected with my emotions that sometimes i don't believe I have any until I snap into some self-destructive thought pattern that justs makes me wish I really didn't have feelings. So now I to the point to where I am taking no meds and seeing no T and i don't think I' d care to again anyway. It never seemed to help in the first place.

I mark the trig as I don't wan to convince someone else to not seek help.