(((((((((Googley))))))))))

Me too. If only someone (T) could *see* just how much pain I am in. SOmetimes I want to show T all my cuts and scars coz he doesnt seem to get how much pain I am in. He thinks I can cope. I can't. Im learning the more I keep it in the more hurt Im causing myself emotionally, and I need to tell T. I am finally learning to trust him. I dont care about the physical pain- I just need the emoitional pain to stop. For once. Somehow.

Has T called you back? Can you tell her about this pain in your next session? I've held it in for so long, but I think this week Im going to try and tell T how much I hurt- could you do the same?

If cutting is the only way to relieve your pain for now make sure you are careful, but please talk to T next time you see her.