I don't know if I can give you any good advice. I have felt much like you do--uncomfortable with my body, not feeling that I am smart and capable dispite all the good things I have done. I am making some headway into these feelings of inadaquacy, I am even--dare I say it?--starting to love myself. I started by reading health books written by women about women. One I recommend is Women's Health, Women's Wisdom. Not only does it tell how to care for your body it explodes the myths about our bodies that make us feel so inadaquate physically.

Right now I am reading books by the Zen teacher Cheri Huber. I got "There is Nothing Wrong with You, going beyond self-hate." It is an excellent book though I admit the last few days I have been having extreme moodswings due to the information and trying to decide what to do with it. But I have come to the conclusion that I want to live in compassion for myself and for others and that means giving up a belief system that I have learned since childhood. Scary stuff, that.

Not much advice but know that I am thinking of you,
Take care,
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Tell me, I'll forget.
Show me, I may remember.
But involve me and I'll understand.--Chinese proverb