Everyone kept telling me to get some help and I kept putting it off, but then I realized that I really wanted to do well in school and that maybe I need some help to ensure that.

Well, I was still putting it off, until I got blocked at another site. I got really really upset (yet again), and people told me to get some help.

Today I went to an "assessment" session at the student counselling centre.

I was in a good mood and didn't think much of it. I was starting to think that maybe it was a little silly.

I think I disclosed things too readily or something because I think she really freaked out. It didn't seem like she was freaking out, but then she pretty much insisted that I go with her to see a GP immediately!

Yikes.

That was embarrassing. I got seen really quickly too...like it was some sort of emergency or something! EEEK...so embarrassing.

Well, now I'm going to see my p-doc's replacement (my p-doc is on maternity leave) in two weeks.

It turns out that the student counselling centre will NOT see me. :-(

Why in the world do others think I'm so disordered? Do I just not have enough insight or something? Maybe it was the way I so casually discussed plans of killing myself. :-(

I guess I'm just too disordered for the student counselling centre? :-(

Thank goodness the GP there decided NOT to send me to the hospital!

That's just what I need! Another stupid trip to the hospital...possibly getting locked up again and missing my classes.