I am 17 and was in my first actual relationship. I obsessed about every little detail (what she said, what she did, her reactions to certain things I said, my feelings). It ruined my relationship with this girl and we only went out for a month and a half.

Due to all of these thoughts I got overly stressed out and couldn't handle anything. It wasn't the girl, this girl was amazingly nice to me and really cares about me. I also really care about her. But the thing is, I obsessed about being curious about other relationships.

I mainly got curious about relationships because this was my first relationship and I enjoyed how fun it is to see what it's like, also the fact that I could only see her once a week because she has 8 siblings and her parents would be strict about letting her out a lot. This also made it seem like I was following er schedule, which ticked me off. But I mean, I really loved being around this girl but I couldn't enjoy anything because of my obsessions.

Even after we broke up she called me that night to check up on how I was doing. This showed me how much she cares and o don't understand why I would get so selfish. Then once I got out of the relationship I didn't really feel like pursuing anyone else even though I have that curiousity and I could only think about my ex. I don't think I can get over her because he was just so wonderful to me and I miss her so much. Even though i'm less stressed out I realize how good she was to me.

I just want to not let the obsession of curiousity take over of I begin dating er again and it's still there but it's so confusing because I have a strong curiousity there too.

how do you make your first relationship last without letting your curiousity of others take over?