((((((((((everyone)))))))))))

Thanks for all your hugs and support, all.

My moods have been fluctuating for the last couple of weeks. It's not as awful as it used to be, but it's annoying and makes my daily life that much more difficult. Maybe I am still grieving for my grandfather, I don't know. It has stopped hurting to think of him, and I haven't cried since the funeral last week. I feel more peaceful about the whole thing. I take comfort from the fact that he's not suffering any more, and that he's in a much better place now.

Overall, I'm doing better. I'm feeling more alive than I was. I've made a coffee date this week with a friend because I can sense myself trying to isolate again, so I'm trying to get on top of that and force myself to get out every day even if it's just for a quick walk for coffee and back. I've been waiting for a new book by my favourite author to come out, and I was complaining to a friend a while ago that it comes out over a month later in the UK than it does in Canada, so she mailed me a copy. Every time I pick up the book I'm reminded that someone cares about me enough to remember something I said months ago, and then is willing to ship it to me overseas. If I have friends like that -- not to mention the support of all the wonderful people here at PC -- how can the heaviness last for long?