I fight my feelings for weeks; I even give into the SI...just so I don't have to post in these forums; Why?

How can one who feels like she has the entire weight of the world of her shoulders & is fighting off the Big "S", in good conscious, come to this forum & feel like she doesn't have the right (OR the energy)
to "rally for a position to post" when all she sees is the entire "index" chocked full of "red triggers?"

This why...