(((((((((((((((( Theodora )))))))))))))))))))
Gentle

's to you. I'm glad you found PC and are able to write out your fear and questions. I do hope you find some peace in being able to do so.
I'm so sorry you are suffering, knowing that it's just a matter of time before it gets worse. I can imagine it can stop you right in your tracks most days. Are you in therapy? If not, I think it would be quite helpful to you so you can make some peace with yourself and your thoughts.
Keep posting, keep reaching out. We're here to listen and support. Please take good care of yourself.
Sending you positive and caring thoughts,

_sabby_