So thanks all for your replies to my thread "losing momentum." I think that my intense reaction to my T that I talked about in that thread has actually renewed my momentum in therapy! So that is great!

I read her some parts of my posts on here and told her all about how intense my reaction was to thinking she was abandoning me. This reaction I had was so full of information, for both of us. So my session last night was really deep, connected, and real because I told her exactly how I felt and how these feelings affected my week, and we talked about where my fear of abandonment comes from and the fact that I'm not ready right now for this, and that I'll need more of a support system before terminating therapy as well as dealing with issues that we're working on and haven't resolved. We are not at the termination phase at all. So after all this, I no longer fear that she is kicking me out.

We had to wrap up before I got to talk about the mental block I have with talking about certain things, but we made a plan to talk about it next week, and I don't feel afraid of that.

I still don't know how to get past the mental block about trauma-related and sexual-issue-related things. It's a pretty strong force that just shuts down my brain when I actually try to think of topics to bring up in T about this stuff. I just go blank. These things only come into my mind against my will, and catch me off guard, and I couldn't possibly think of a therapy topic during these times of distress. Ugh. I guess I will talk about this with T on Friday, but has anyone else experienced this kind of mental block? How did you get past it?