So my T responded to my second message asking her to call me. And she wasn't angry with me. I apologized for leaving the angry voice mails and she said that it was okay. She said that she had said that I could leave voice mails. She even said that this week I could leave more . But to make sure and ask her for a call back if I needed it. I feel like I need to apologize again when I am in T so I can make sure she knows it. And also tell her how scared I was afterwords and how bad it made me feel to know that I had done that. And being afraid that she was going to kick me out. But everything right now is okay until I see her again.