thanks everyone. i don't know. i don't feel right. yes, it was something degrotary not directly about me, but about the way i am.

and T denied saying it, but i know T did because afterwards i spaced out

i dont want an apology but what T said, triggered what happened, so i want T to understand that

when i talked to T about it, T got that it could be the trigger, but still denied that T said it

and yes, i think i am being lied to and i dont like that

plus i feel like i am now being called the liar too.

but in other ways, the T has been ok...so, it's almost like i have to do what Sunny said and move on. but gosh, it is bothering me and it is going to take an extra long time now to trust this