Hiya Serenity, I really feel for you {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Serenity}}}}}}}}}}}}}
and know what you're going through. A couple of years ago I was living with constant and extreme anxiety with panic attacks coming out of my ears.

I'm still suffering but it has eased a hell of a lot and I'm thinking about panic attacks much less than I was.
I have some really horrible twitchy things going on with me at the moment which I hate. It happens when people look at me in public, I just go into a freaking spasm, well my neck does and my head shakes.
I'm trying to convince myself that it isn't that noticeable. I don't mind so much when I can keep symptoms to myself and just be quietly miserable (!) but when I look like the village idiot it gets to me big time. I'm majorly self-conscious I guess.

Anyway just to say, it does get better
Have you tried positive affirmations e.g. I am safe, I am safe, no harm can come to me here etc....??? i know saying this to yourself seems silly when you definitely don't feel safe but if you do actually say these things to yourself anyway it can help.

marie *****************