Velcro, you KNOW I can relate to the scariness of what you're feeling...and I too am amazed that you were able to let yourself feel the sadness (even though you felt disgusted by that feeling which I can relate to OH SO MUCH).....AND reach out to your aunt....That really is HUGE...

And then to reach out to T....WOW....

I'm so glad your T is being supportive and that you are allowing yourself to trust T more....I am inching my way there as well, as scary as it feels.