Yesterday was actually the first time I ever determined to do it. I've planned and been prepared to die for years, but yesterday I was actually going to.

Lucky for my mom, she managed to call me at the perfect timing, and told me she set up a therapist appointment on monday and asked me if I could hold on till then. I didn't tell her what I was about to do. So. Here I am. Let's hope this therapist isn't another shoddy one.