You are completely right. I may have stopped using, but that still does not address the reason I started using in the first place...It should be expected that a large void would once again open up that I had been filling with drugs for so many years. I was hoping time would heal everything. It was so difficult to remain clean that I kind of stopped working once I accomplished that feat.
It is easy to say this now, with a bit more perspective.

The trouble right now is that I am in a foreign country, and so I do not have access to any sort of 12 step program. I have always avoided 12 step programs for whatever reason...I suppose I should do my research...the ones I always had access to, seemed to be very 'churchy' give yourself into God's hands...I am not so into that, but I do realize this is a generalization and they cannot all be this way.

Anyway, thank you for your advice, it helps to hear it from another person. Makes it more real.