Hi Tree -

Ugh - I so get where you are. I started feeling this way for T about 6 months ago and did everything in the book to avoid it. Ruptures, canceling appointments, withdrawing. You name it. I finally realized that these feelings exist in all of our relationships whether we want them to or not. But I was horrified.

I finally found the courage to openly express all my feelings and thankfully, I have a T who not only has rock solid boundaries, but also the training to work with me in understanding not only is this normal but often a sign that "really good" work is happening. I am learning so much about how I attach and why. We also celebrate that I can feel these things in the first place!

Unfortunately, there are T's out there who aren't ethical or simply don't have the training to deal with it. It sounds from your posts that your T is a good one.

Anyway, big kudos to you for addressing it. Try to go easy on yourself as you navigate through it.

Hope