Oh, EF......
you really did it.
If you are still reading, I'm sorry you felt like you had to leave.
It seems like you really tried to work things out. Maybe some more time would have helped. But I can understand your decision.
I just wanted to say I noticed, and i believe there is a place for you here, for you to get support, where your issues can be understood and supported. I don't know what else to say. I just feel really badly and I hope you are doing ok.