hang in there musik... this is just a cycle and it will pass. Please don't do anything to harm yourself. You have a family and students that need you. If you're unsafe, please go to the hospital. Of course it's not most people's favorite place, but if you need it, you need it. Otherwise hang tough and keep yourself as occupied as you can. Keep your mind focused the best you can so you can filter out the negative automatic thoughts. Take good care!!!! Hope you get to feeling better soon.