I had the same addiction, complicated by joining a religious group aimed at chastity. It finally overcame me, I kept refusing to take an anti-depressant that would affect my sexual life and had occasional intercourse with my roommate. The intercourse made him go crazy so I finally put two and two together that sex is not safe emotionally for me or for the other person and that shallow hook-ups are never a good thing. I took the anti-depressant that causes sexual dysfuction and haven't been to a gay website in a month. I know with bi-polar disorder you may or may not be able to take an anti-depressant, but I felt blame on my part for causing my roommate to be so confused about his sexual orientation and sex life that I became severely depressed especially since he left me for two weeks. He came back to me and I know we have love between us but we are still a little snipity with each other, but I am glad he is back and I am seriously just pursing the holiness aspect of life being gay and schizophrenic. I want chastity. I have seen all aspects of the gay culture and have experienced love with a man on different occasions but the love I have for my roommate is with compassion for his misgivings and forgiveness as well. It's something that grows with time and I trust him much more than meeting any stranger to attempt a relationship with.