
I'm not sure what to do...I think I want to switch to a different doctor but I'm nervous about it...I've been seeing my current doc (Dr. P.) for about 5 or 6 years now, and he is good with meds and he's not unkind...but I always feel like he's in a big hurry to get me out the door when I go in to see him. As soon as I sit down he starts writing out refills for my meds...before I even have a chance to tell him how things have been going. And when I do start talking about how things have been, he looks at me, but it's one of those looks that make you feel as though the person is looking right through you, do you know what I mean? Kind of a blank stare? And like I said earlier, he's not unkind, but he's not exactly friendly either...it's kind of like talking to a robot or something...he never seems to have any kind of expression on his face at all...now that I think about it, it's actually kind of creepy LOL. I hate being rushed through the appointment, especially since I'm alotted 15 minutes and I'm usually done in 5. Last year when I was in the hospital, Dr. P. was off two of the weekends and I saw Dr. L. instead, and I liked him a lot...he was more relaxed and took time to listen and was more responsive. So I thought I'd see if he has any openings, but I'm scared...Dr. P. is the head of the psychiatric department, and I don't know, I guess I'm afraid he'll be insulted or angry or something if I want to see someone else. I don't currently see a therapist and I don't really know how to go about changing docs...
Does anyone have any advice? Should I stick with Dr. P. just because he's good at med management even though he makes me nervous? Or should I try to find out how to switch to Dr. L. who makes me more comfortable? I'm confused!
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