tree, you have amazed me, yet again. Your bond with your T, the pair that you two are, it is such an inspiration. If any therapist/client pair can navigate these waters successfully, it is you two. And IMO you are doing just the right thing, by bringing it into the light. Ignoring it, stuffing it, hiding it, hiding FROM it, minimizing it, all those types of behaviors are what have brought a lot of us into the therapy in the first place, am I right?
I am so proud of you for writing that email, which I thought you were going to print and bring into session on Monday. When I read that you actually sent it to him already, my jaw dropped. I already had so much respect for you, but...wow. You continually take risks and are so open and honest with your T, it is why you are healing, Tree. It is why you are getting better, it is why you are starting to see what it's going to be like to have a life worth living. I want to be Tree when I grow up.