I'm hurting the one I love. Every day I am throwing tantrums, starting fights, and acting irrationally. I am yelling, swearing, and bombing my partner with delusional, twisted interpretations of her words. It is clear she is at the end of her rope yet I keep pushing her away.

I spent months studying triggers. I think it's time for a change. Why not find ways to fight the bad behavior, regardless of the trigger? Does anyone know how I can change my behavior when I start to lose control? How can I get it back again after losing it? How can I show my partner the love and trust from when we began together?

She almost left the other day. This is one of the worst behavior episodes so far. Even in the face of losing it all, I behave badly. Why don't I stop that? What am I trying to prove?

Ron982