Dear Doesn't ~ No, you don't sound like a moron in any way. And in fact, you write very well! I have no expertise in this area, although I am considered a [recovering] addict of substances. In my humble and non-expert opinion I will say these things: You say you do this, in part, for stress relief. That's one of the main reasons substance addicts do their substances. One way to find out if you have an addiction is to try and quit! Just a thought. billieJ