I understand Amy. I can't remember a time in my life when I didn't have to do certain things to 'feel right'.

As a child, I had to pat things. When I went through a room, I would pat the lampshade, the back of a chair, the rug. I had to pat whatever my head told me to pat.

It took me a long time to figure out why. I was a hostage as a kid, and this patting was my stress relief. I spent a great deal of time on the question, 'why'.

If I was walking across the lawn and came to a dandelion, it would stop me in my tracks. Couldn't go left or right around it, couldn't step on it or over it. WHY???

Every time I got an answer to that why, I asked why again. And why and why and why. I did finally find out what the stress was but no one could figure out what I was doing while dealing with it.

If I find myself getting superstitious now I know stress is building up again, and it is time to either rest or take time to find out what the stress is about.

I wish you well Amy. There are answers, it does take time to find them though.

Good luck, you are worth the effort!