Ron, you got some excellent responses above. I have been where you are, and it is those closest to us that we tend to hurt the most - probably because they are the ones who tend to be there. Walking away, talking to your SO when you are feeling more rational, exercise, and CBT all sound excellent. I used to have an SO who would begin to fan himself with his hand madly when he was angry. It was funny, and we would both start to laugh! Does it help to think of your loved one as a little, hurting person, when you get angry? Can you explain to her that you are sorry that your illness makes you a little paranoid in misinterpreting her remarks sometimes, and that you are working on this as far as you know how? Would a med change help? Have you talked to your pdoc or T about the problem? Would telling yourself, "I'm probably just paranoid," help at all, when you start to get angry? I'm just guessing here, as I have long been too medicated to either cry or get mad - lol. But I have been there, and, fortunately I had, at the time, a Significant Other, who was extremely understanding. Unfortunately, I failed to realize his virtues and departed for "greener pastures" only to find that there were not any. It's plain that you are trying to get better, and I hope that you will try some of the excellent suggestions made by the above responders. Caring About You and Wishing the Best for Your Relationship ~ billieJ