Trying to, You are certainly not alone. I try to make myself go to Church, but that's the extent of it - that and the grocery store. And I have no hubby, just the Cat and TV. Sometimes it seems that antidepressant meds are not helping, but when we get off them, we can often see that they were helping. You might want to try going back to the pdoc. Taking hubby along at some point probably would help him to understand, but I agree with englishteacher - maybe not for awhile. Early sessions are generally for information gathering, and you will feel more free to talk about your circumstances and your past if you are alone. Perhaps you can see from all the above responses, that you actually do have girlfriends, and certainly you have one here. I know what it is like to think that people don't like you, but that is just a symptom of depression. People liking us has almost nothing to do with what we are like, but much to do with the way we make them feel about themselves. You don't have to be outgoing to give someone an honest compliment, and you can see something good about almost everyone. Even if you don't know them, you can compliment a hairstyle or an article of clothing - if you honestly do like it. Try this in the grocery store check out line. Or, if there's a seemingly disabled or elderly person behind you in line, try helping them with putting their items on the counter. Self-consciousness can be overcome to a great extent, by other-centeredness. That is easier to say than to do, I know, and I know how hard it is to get yourself together to even go out. But the grocery store check out line stuff is pretty easy. When you get outside, you can compliment someone on their wonderful, yellow car. Making another smile, makes you smile, at least for awhile! The more often you do it, the more you get to smile. I would attack the problem from as many angles as possible, including a return to the doc. There may have been new meds since you were last treated. Some of the newest meds, for example, work on 3 neurotransmitters, rather than only 2. Sign me Girlfriend! billieJ