WOW. I am almost moved to tears by the kindness and acceptance and encouragement in all of these replies. Really and truly. Thank you SO much.

I haven't heard back from T yet, which is a little strange (because I had to send a second e-mail about a scheduling question for tomorrow). I'm guessing he has something going on that's making it hard for him to get on e-mail.

At this point, I don't regret sending him the e-mail AT ALL. I would expect myself to be all spiraly, but I'm not (yet!). I think I have this hope that we can just move THROUGH it quickly and I can feel "normal" again. Maybe wishful thinking

Everyone's replies helped me so, so, so much. I've already read them a few times, and I know I'll read them again and again.

I feel so lucky to have this board.