Leacon - you have my sympathys, thoughts, and prayers. I know what you are going through. If at all possiblel, let it out in the form of tears.... Crying is a healing of the mind and the body. Let it out... I hope that you do have a pastor or minister that you can turn to at this time. If your parents have one, they should invite him over to help your parents through this rough time in their lives. ((((((((((leacon)))))))))) You are never alone - your Guardian Angel is always beside you - and we are always here for you.