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Old Mar 14, 2010, 09:45 PM
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I'm feeling blue. For some reason lately I've been having the strangest dreams. I guess this is common for me, but it's just getting annoying kind of. Okay...beyond those trivial things, I've been having sort of flashbacks bubbling into my memory. I don't know if flashbacks is actually the right word...They aren't necessarily traumatic events, just uncomfortable events, poor decisions that I made a few years ago. I guess I sort of blocked them out of my memory for a while. I've been making a lot better decisions these days and have been trying to turn my life around. I'm wondering why these old memories are bubbling up like that. Just kind of out of the blue a new memory will pop into my head. One time it was triggered by someone that I saw...but other times, I don't know why.

One of my hypothesis is that maybe it means that I am healing. Maybe I am feeling safe enough to have those old memories bubble up so that they can be healed. I mean, it does feel like I am healing and I have come a long way.

I still have trouble though with my depression and sitting with my uncomfortable feelings. Now that I haven't been drinking I've been turning to food instead for comfort. I know that isn't that great of a choice either, but sometimes I don't know what else to do. Any suggestions about how to get grounded when I'm having these overwhelming uncomfortable feelings? Or suggestions about how to deal with the feelings? ughh. thanks .