Loving me, being a person with bipolar disorder is complicated and that is the case for most of us. We feel like we are dangerous to other people emotionally, we hate ourselves and feel insecure at times, are afraid to get close because we are afraid everything will fall apart and we will lose those close to us and everything in the process. Most of us want to be normal like everyone else but hell Normal is so freaking alien a concept to us and bipolar such an alien concept to those who aren't bridging the gap is hard. I am saddened that she isn't being active and consistent with treatment. Untreated bipolar disorder is chaos at best when someone is in an episode. Getting someone we love to treat Bipolar Disorder is a tricky thing. It is not unusual for someone with BP to refuse medicine and get help because many times we are addicted to the emotional ebb and flow and that feels normal to us. So think of being involved with someone with Bipolar Disorder an addict, but instead of to drugs and alcohol, their emotions(that is not to say that we don;t use drugs and alcohol to further invoke emotional feelings). Their is a high probability for relapse in all addicts and we can making us get help when we aren't really wanting it is hard. I wish I had more to offer then just a little insight into the creature of Bipolar Disorder.