The hospital definitely isn't a place to be scared of. I have been in 2 times and both times I was freaked out (and I work in health care and have done rotations through psych units in hospitals). I went to a private free standing mental health hospital and the experience was really, really scary for the first few hours just figuring out what's going on and who the people are and the rules and all that. But after that it was actually really relieving to be there because I knew I was no longer in charge of my safety. I could totally focus on healing and feeling better and it was overall a positive experience. I mean it's not some place anyone WANTS to go, but if it's needed it doesn't have to be horrible. I don't know what your insurance is or anything like that but if you have private insurance they will typically pay for private hospitals. Do research now and figure out where you would want to go if you needed to. Your doc can always call the intake line at the facility and set up evaluation that way so you wouldn't even have to go to the medical hospital ER and all that. It's a pretty painless process. I hope you don't need this information because you're feeling better but if not, research and find someplace you would be willing to go just in case you need it. Again, I hope you don't need it but I hope you use it if you have to.