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Originally Posted by xxAmyxx
I have had OCD problems all my life.
When I was younger I would have to touch a certain number of things in a store or something bad would happen. I would have to fall asleep with the covers a certain way for the same reason. Touch my lamp a certain number of times before it "felt right".
The night time ones I have pretty much eliminated but there are some that just irk me to no end.
When in a store I still do that touching thing. If I see something and I think something about it and think "oh I should show this to the person I am with." If I don't it will bug me and I will have to go back and show the person (even if we are 2 isles away from the item itself). If I don't I just won't "feel right."
I also have this problem when I am showering with my boyfriend. We have a routine that we do taking turns with the beam of water. The other day I stood there until he was finished because he wouldn't take turns. This enraged me because it was messing up my routine. It literally messed up my whole day. I told him about it and he understands but sometimes I think he thinks that I am making this stuff up.
It also happens when me and my boyfriend have to pack up to go somewhere. If I can not physically help with the packing it drives me nuts and makes me angry. I have to make sure everything is packed and triple check it. I am always afraid I will leave something.
I tend to obsessively check door locks as well.
The thing that drive me the most nuts is when I touch a certain body part of mine I will have to touch the opposite. I do it the most with my eye brows. I will smooth one out and then have to do the other. If it doesn't feel right I will have to do it again. I want to stop but my brain keeps telling me "Nope keep doing this. It isn't right yet."
I sometimes feel like a lot of people think I just make up this stuff. I tell them "please don't do this it messes with my OCD" and they look at me like I am crazy.
I don't like feeling like things aren't right just because of some routine I didn't get to do.
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Yeah that sucks because I also have to do a routine so my day want go bad I have to keep counting numbers In my head and I also to sit in the right in the car and always biting my nail.