I have emotional troubles. But I am not talking about my depression or anger or anything specific. I am talking about the strength and intensity. I have to keep a tight rein on my emotions otherwise every reaction I have is way out of proportion. (Although in retrospect Only my negitive emotions act this way). Having done this for such a long period of time has made these control responses automatic. Now I know that this can't be healthy but the other option is unacceptable. Every time something little goes wrong( a mistake a work perhaps) I immediately feel immense depression and worthlessness that may take me hours to get a handle on. If I didn't control these thoughts and emotions I Would Be Unable To Function. Something that frightens me more though is my anger. Something small can prick me in just the right way that an upwelling of what can only be called rage explodes in me. The intensity thankfully never lasts as long as depressing feelings or thoughts. So it comes down to that I either feel nothing or have an overzealous reaction. I have let loose before and ended up in a hospital setting twice withen 3 months of each other. Not suicide attempts but thoughts and plans of. So what do I do. I am finding harder and harder to hold on and I have lost it before.