Flaming Jane... I also can't believe I let him talk to me the way he does. I am not sure if "size" has anything to do with it.. He is 6 ft and I am 5'2. He towers over me and can be aggressive and I shrink/get frightened when he gets aggressive.. I know I should not do this.. It just happens and I panic....AJ is an adult, he is 29... He should know better..I should know better....What a mess our lives can be if we don't keep things together.. I have no excuse for how I react or feel when frightened..... Sad place to be indeed....I am pathetic... :*( ...... I can't even take charge of my own life, I have no business being involved in AJ's life........

When I read all the replies and how "I" need to be in charge... I realize whatever happened to me, sucked out the "life" and "strength" I once had.... NO excuses or pity party for me... What all this means is I am foolish thinking I could help AJ when I have "issues" of my own...........

Sorry for the "negative" but honest post....Guess all of this just "hit" me and reality slapped me in the face and woke me up.. Me being here is like the blind leading the blind.....