Green,

Hope things work out well. I know from experience that building things up to be bigger than they are has always been a part of my vocabulary, and it helps put me into a defeatist attitude.

If you do feel suicidal sometimes, maybe the long-term therapy will be good for you for a while? Long-term does not always mean life-long, either.

I hope you enjoy your classes, I am just starting new ones myself, and already feel way behind