I hardly ever cut... I always get away "i cut myself when I was shaving my legs* excuse when someone notices actually...
but I do different things... I sleep deprive myself... I will pull a 38 hour or more "day" without sleeping. I love the feeling of being sleep deprived actually... I feel some underlaying strengh in it... I don't feel depressed anymore in the moments when the sun rises after a night of not sleeping... I go to sleep the next evening than... I even do my daily tasks...
or I deprive myself of food... I don't think I have an eating disorder (I mean, I love to eat and I have no idea what carbs and calories are... I love good food, I love the Czech/German cuisine... enough said). I just sometimes tell myself I will not eat, for whatever stupid reason (often it's "I don't want to go to get food"... but I will often not eat even if I have food in the fridge, "just because").
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