hello all, so its coming up to a year since my ex broke it off with me. it was a bad break up, i didn't do anything wrong, she just slowly fell out of love with me i guess. but then for a month after the break up, i kept calling/txtn/emailing her. and that irritated her to a point where she just hated me. now if i could go back in time, i would have stopped all those emails/txts so this wouldn't have happened.

i understand that she doesn't love me anymore, but i didn't want her hatered. this was my first serious relationship, i have had about 3-4 relatioships before this one. but i went all out on this one, both mentally and emotionally.

now its alomost a year later and i m still not over this girl, still depressed, still contemplating time to time is i should even live in this world. what hurts me the most is that after the break up she never contacted me ever again, nothing. i still get worked up over the fact that she hates me. ppl ask me, why do u still care about her? arent u mad at her? but its hard to explain, even though this girl broke my heart, i just can't get mad at her. no matter what happens, i just couldn't.

no don't get me wrong, she was the sweetest, most caring, non-materilistic girl ever. perfect wifey material. that is one of the reasons i fell for her soo hard. but it is what it is, she has a new bf now (i saw their pics on facebook) but i still worried if this guy is for real or if he's just taking advantage of her. i wanna know if she really loves him etc etc. all these questions i know that i can't get an answer to, but i ponder at them anyways.

sometimes i feel like calling her, but then i stop myself saying that it is over and that she hates you and she never wants to hear from you again. how can i stop the memories in my head? how can' i stop thinking about this girl? why can' i just let go of her?

srry its kinda long, would apprecaite any replies.