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We don't know who our original host is either... like so many other things we don't understand. I feel like it, but know that I'm not. And who I think is says she's not too. We have had a single host for about four years between 2004 and 2008, but she's now so far away that we have don't have contact and don't know why she came or why she went away. But as our wonderful friends here on PC say, don't push, don't rush, the answers will come.

I can relate to all you have written, including the sense of lack of purpose if secrets are divulged by others. So glad you've found a T though, and now your 'in the system' hopefully if he can't help you, he'll be able to put you onto someone who can.

Big safe hugs to you , hope you have managed to rest.

kp