Hey again. Veteran here. The military mental health system sucks. The pdocs just follow orders...there was a documentary on why the military was handing out pd dx's when clearly mental illness dx's. Turned out they do not have to cover benefits for disorders. I do not think the county should have charged you that $25 when your income was zero. Can you call them and get that deferred? You sounded hopeful when you wrote about how the meds helped. As far as the stigma you carry regarding mental health...it sounds like a chemical imbalance in your brain. Not your fault. He11, if your mom had what you do, she would not think of saying suck it up. My MI does not make me less of a person, it makes me more of one because I am more compassionate to myself and to others. Good luck to you...pm me anytime.