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... Now if only I could find myself a sponsor, who could deal with all of the different parts of me - as a victim of abuse, an adult child of an alcoholic, a child of a dysfunctional family and one who uses bad coping mechanisms to deal with crap.
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The scary thing about your list here is that there aren't many people that exist that don't share your same list these days.
I am so glad you found your way back to having that support in your life. It's important to have support of some kind to make sure you hold yourself accountable for your actions. When we have someone in our life that makes us feel like we have to be accountable for the things we do, it helps keep us much more honest about everything.
I know that feeling of dropping off the fact of the earth also.....there are times when I get so involved in the things I HAVE to do, that I don't have time for the things that aren't "HAVE TO's" until I feel it ends up becoming more important in my life. Always working on my priorities....they change seasonally.
I was lucky with drinking.....It would make me so sick that it wasn't anything I wanted to do.....then when I ended up with migraines, it was really out of the question.......I have wines that have been in my refrig for years.....all my alcolhol is used for now is to cook with......make a mean burbon BBQ sauce......yumm on the pulled pork......but cooking alcolhol cooks out everything except the flavor.....so nothing bad comes of that.
Glad you are making sure your checks & balances are in place in your life.....this is a very good & responsible thing to do......& it's so important to keep the responsible actions as our priorities.
Very proud of you.....