You did it, funny that because I havent been to a home meeting in months but for other reasons. I did remain sober though throughout amd thought I can do this on my own I dont need no sillly NA to keep me from abstaining. So it went fine until a forthnight ago and I got these overpowering cravings for some cociane. Fortunately I dont know any dealers here in Amsterdam, but so overwhelming was it, I was about to take flight to Dublin and meet up with some old wayward friends. I knew it was wrong, I knew I was in trouble so with great trepidation and despair I phoned one of the Guys from and it was unbelievable, it was as if I had just lft him after a meeting. No probing questions, just talk about the cravings and why I am having them so strong.

SO I am going back to the meetings now, because and I am convinced of this, you cant do it on your own, Christina, you need support. Whether you are an alcoholic or not is between you and your higherpower, but in the meantime I would attend the meetings. One less thing to ponder and worry about and its a great social life too

Yeah the sponsor thing freaks me out a bit I feel well I have a psychotherapist once a week I go to, what on earth do i need a layman to remvoe come character defaults that I am aware of alreaDY?