Hey Christina, Glad you decided to give it another whirl. I'm still struggling to get back to meetings after my last relapse - stupid gigantic ego is getting in the way, but I do miss the meetings.

Re you'r comment about other issues and bad coping mechanisms, sorry to break this to you but you're not unique, everyone in AA is messed up to some degree with the issues you describe. Sometimes at open meetings I listen to the speaker and think, well "s***, of course you drank how could you not?"

I have a new sponsor who is absolutely amazing for me precisely because she's not interested in my other issues. She focuses on working the steps with me, period. Yes she lets me whine occassioanlly when my PTSD is flaring up, but she always brings it back to the steps. And that's good for me. In a way it's a relief, I have enough other therapy in my life to deal with my other issues - sometimes I feel overanalyzed. So with my sponsor we just stick to AA basics. And she freaks out over cutting so I jsut don't tell her about it. I've been around AA a few years, and this is the first sponsor I've had how really forces me to keep working the program and it's making a huge difference in how I see things, even if she does piss me off sometimes.

--splitimage