rru96 - it is soooo frustrating to ask for help and receive more problems. This forum does bring up a lot of painful things for people, but the people here are really supportive.

Watch for the trigger icon on a post, as that let's you know that the post may include painful stuff. That way you can monitor whether you are feeling strong enough to deal with possible triggers. I sometimes feel myself sliding down due to reading what others posted, but I have to remind myself that it isn't ME they are talking about. I don't have to jump on their emotions and make them mine.

I wouldn't give up the forum for anything. These people have saved my life just by being there and listening. I'm sorry that you are having a hard time. We are here for you. ((((RRU96))))